The
over-thinker
Okay. Am I overthinking? Why am I overthinking? Do other people overthink
like me? Why do I overthink so much these days? Why do I feel weak when I overthink?
Everyone might have gone through this at one point of time or maybe
still is. Each person overthinks in
their own ways & deals with it differently. I’ve had one too many days of
this… Some on good days where it never really bothered me much because I was in
a sunshine state of mind. Some on bad days, where everything feels like it’s
falling apart and there’s nothing I could do to save myself from this awful
feeling.
A feeling? Was it that overpowering to have ruin my day, my week? The
truth is no it wasn’t! All because my mind plotted some twisted story against
me when there was no problem to even begin with. There were different stages to
my overthinking habit, the trivial ones where I could quickly pull myself out
off. The muddle ones where I would curl up in bed with my hands on my head
begging for it to stop. The little things that scheme up big problems in my
head. Those are the ones that I have discovered myself experiencing especially
when I’m alone. Sometimes it takes so much from me to even fight this feeling
away. It’s so much easier to drown in negative thoughts than it is to bring
yourself up again.
I am a difficult person to deal with, no doubt about that. But so is
everyone else in their own ways. I’m sensitive, emotional, occasionally mean to
people who I love, often lash out when I’m stressed or angry, I cry for things
that maybe petty for others, I’m impatient and often misinterpret situations
that has caused me something much more valuable. definitely my biggest flaw
yet.
With all these negativity shuffling in my mind, it’s hard to
recollect all the promising traits of myself. Thats where things come spiraling
down in reality too.
But when my mind starts to unclogged that stage, my thoughts become
calmer & relax, and so do I. Many times i look up for ways to help ease the
overthinking in me. Watching Anna Akana who has significantly described every
detailed part of overthinking that I am experiencing was so helpful. One of the
many things that most youtubers say: Meditations, pen down your thoughts, take
up a hobby, talking to a friend.
d, or get busy. With all these tips, I found myself experimenting
with each of it slowly. Take meditation for an example, it was super hard to
focus in the beginning but once I found a track that suited me, it became much
easier to unwind my thoughts. Another tip would be Headspace (meditation app)
with a speaker. It both had a positive effect on me but it was temporary.
Self-healing takes practice and time, commit to it and persist. Lately I’ve
been jotting down my daily activity or things I’ve got to do. This is when I’m energetic enough, other days
I’m more laid back.
This is me, writing about how I’ve been feeling today. So, I’m still
learning about how to overcome being an over-thinkerJ
-ashwiini-
